Being Me (Part 1)

For years and years I've been getting the message from God via priesthood blessings, random people calling me with one message that they felt impressed to give me, people in a class coming up to me and telling me the same thing over and over again!

Be yourself.

The first time I was given that message I thought I took it to heart and really was myself. Then a week or so later it came again! "Be yourself." This time I was a little discouraged and puzzled as to how I wasn't being myself.

I can't solve a problem until I'm aware that it's a problem. Right? Well, I wasn't sure what the problem was, but apparently identifying the problem (or equation) was actually the solution to the problem. Funny how stuff works like that.

I am the light, truth, and love of the Creator.

See, I love math, and physics. Those were my favorite subjects second only to yoga and psychology! I like to think of things in terms of math equations, the world makes more sense to me that way.

So the question was "If Ryan M Call = X then what is X?"

So i went to work chipping away at the problem. God threw me a bone when I was released from my mission; my mission president gave me a special message. He quoted some Prophet (the reference eludes me, which actually drove me to think and ponder the message more and more!) in saying something like "Get as much education and training in the areas where you have talents, interests, and passions. For God has planted those feelings within you to build the kingdom of God."

I now had a part of the equation! X = passions + interests + talents + YZPDQ(stuff i still hadn't figured out yet)

My next thought was "Crap! What are my passions and interests?! I've spent the greater part of my life addicted to sin! How am i supposed to even know what i like?!" And so the search began.

Stay tuned for Part 2!